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If I would have never heard this song I might have never started thinkin about you... but the truth is... is that I miss you.

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I'm moving on... but I didn't think it would be this fast. I wanted to take it one day at a time and see what could possibly come from it. I didn't want to take someones virginity that I barely new. I like him and all but I just didn't want to go this far this fast. Now I feel like anything else that happens will be bad and that this mistake could be held over us for a long time.

I miss my usual and the same old same old I'm used to doin everyday. I'm not going to fall back because I know this is what is best for me and him. I burst into tears when I thought I saw you on my way to BK. Then in the parking lot the vacuum place that we used to go to was staring me in the face. All of my old feelings started rushing back I felt like I couldn't breath cause if I tried to say anything my heart would collapse. I miss all the good times and the familiarity that we had with each other. When I could take my shirt off in the car if I was hot and you still had your arm around me holding my back as if you were trying to keep me safe from all the dangers on the road. Your daily trip to Mc D's your order of a large fries hot n spicy and a Mc double, and me just getting a Mc double. You knew I wanted fries so you would always ask me if I wanted some but b4 I would answer there would be a pile on my Mc double wrapper b4 I could say thank you ur arm would be wrapped right back where it belonged on my lower back and your eyes on the road again.

I miss you like crazy baby...

That Good Shit

I know I haven't done this in a while... I have just been busy lately.

I keep holding on to you and this is the time to finally let it go and become a women. I don't deserve the shit that you put me through, you don't deserve the shit I put you through, and my son doesn't deserve to grow up in a house hold where his mother and father don't get along.

I still love you... don't get me wrong but I just won't be acting like it anymore. The love will slowly die, [according to you it has been dead for a while] I will move on and so will you. You'll be off to college b4 u know it and I'll be here forced to raise our child on my own, but at the same time getting over u to make my life better.

U changed me.. you gave me a greater meaning to my life because without you I think I would have had 3 babies by now 5 STD's and living in my boyfriends broke down apartment with no job... on food stamps. You showed me who GOD is and why his son died for our sins. You were there 4 me when I couldn't depend on anyone else. You taught me about bang and speakers. how CVX's are stronger than CVR's. You went to jail because of an incident that involved me. Yet when you came out I was the one you wanted to talk to. :] That was almost a year ago... and today is the final court date! I'm so exited! I wanna wish you good luck and GOD bless. I pray that everything else in your life that you do will only make you better and build you up higher to reach all the goals you have for your life.

Now all that good shit is out the window. I know I fucked up a lot of times but you fucked up too. I had to walk to work yesterday just cause I couldn't find a ride, I asked you time after time if you could take me, but you didn't want to. Guess your right no one at bush really likes me. You don't give a damn if I get fired or not so I had no other choice but to walk.

I don't expect anything from u anymore... just to take care of my son and stay good for him. After yesterday I will never go back to you even if you got naked at school and scram through the halls that you loved me and that you were stupid for letting me go and blah blah blah. Yesterday was the end of us...

This is whats best for us so.. I'm really going to do it this time and thats a bet.